Dear Manew,

I’ve spent the last two years kind of obsessively thinking about you. A lot of people have spent a lot of time doing this. You’d love how much people think and talk about you. Especially because you’ve got a funny guy/hero reputation that would probably puff up your ego a bit.

For me, it hasn’t just been thinking about how much I love you and miss you and wish you were here. I also have to do it because I decided to make it my job. A job that is by far the hardest thing I have done in my life. It’s stressful and overwhelming. I love it.

I like to think that you’ve been watching. The rational part of me knows that’s almost certainly not true. Doesn’t stop me from looking for hints all over the place. I do that constantly. I seek out little coincidences in conversations or occ

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