Female ejaculation: 'I'm a woman who "squirts."'

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I really hate the word 'squirting' — but that's what I do.

I didn't know what squirting — also known as flooding, gushing and ejaculating — was until about a decade ago, when I was in my late forties .

After my first husband's affair came to light, and he left, I was broken-hearted, lonely, and convinced I would never want to find somebody else.

And I was also embarrassed at the idea of being with somebody new, because I'd never had an orgasm .

I'd had sex with more than 15 men in my life.

I lost my virginity at 17 with my then steady boyfriend, and a series of partners followed