John, 51

There’s still so much I want to do sexually, and I want to do it now while I still can

Group sex is a long-held fantasy of mine. When I was 19, I had a relationship with an older woman and we spoke about having sex with other people, but it never happened. Then I met my wife, and although we had a long and loving marriage, we didn’t have sex often or feel the need to explore. When she got cancer, we stopped having sex completely.

Since my wife died, I’ve reconnected with my sexuality. I’ve realised that my fantasies are actually available to me, not just something I live out through porn. And when I met Sophie, I discovered there’s been a sexual revolution going on – and I’d been missing out.

In the early days, Sophie would wake me up in the middle of the night to have sex and

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